Tuesday, February 19, 2008

Where have YOU been?? WHERE HAVE I BEEN?!

I've been M-I-A.
And I've also been a combination of insomniatic (thanks for the new word, Aly & AJ) and nocturnal.

Yesterday at about 6 a.m. when I was still awake watching Gilmore Girls, I had a little conversation with myself (I get a little loopy when I get no sleep). It went something like the following:
"Wow, I think I'm nocturnal. I'm like an owl. Like..a night owl. Oh God, did I just now realize the true meaning of night owl? Or have I always known this full meaning, just never really thought about it? Is it really necessary to call it a night owl? I mean, everyone knows owls are usually only awake at night. So isn't the term 'night owl' a little redundant? OH MY GOD WHY IS KIRK SLEEPING IN A BOX?!"
Yeah, I have really random thought processes at night (or the morning I guess) that get interrupted when I'm watching TV shows on DVD.

Okay, anyways, my head is currently spinning due to my lack of sleep, but let me try to catch everyone up on my life.

As I'm sure (well, at least I hope, haha) my friends have noticed, I haven't really talked to anyone in the past few weeks.
I AM ALIVE, DON'T WORRY! This was a cause of concern for the crasian a little while ago.
Don't worry, I'm fine. I just haven't really gotten online that much lately.
BUT if my friends really want to talk to me, they have my phone number, so they can send me a text if they wanna talk. Hopefully no one is trying to text my Verizon phone and getting mad at me for not responding. Here's why I haven't responded:
My Verizon phone doesn't let me make any phone calls. Well, it does, but they don't go through. It kinda just sits there and says "calling" for like...ever.
Also, I get voicemails and text messagse days after they're sent. If someone calls me, it never shows the call. It never even shows I missed a call a few days later. It's like my phone doesn't exist for me but it does for other people.
SO the point is, if you want to get in touch with me when I'm not on AIM, hit up my Sidekick if you have the number.

But speaking of the above technological issue (wow, am I old now?), my computer has also decided to start dying on me.
My Macbook is STILL broken, so I can't use that.
And well, this computer I'm on now isn't exactly that great anymore.
It has a giant crack in the screen (thanks to my mom dropping the computer and then telling me only when I mentioned the crack, haha).
Also, the 'q' key is halfway off. I have to press it very awkwardly when I type. Sometimes I even have to slam it down really hard. I guess it's a good thing I don't use too many words with the letter 'q' in them.

Now this is getting boring and I'm rambling.

The point of this blog is...
YES I AM ALIVE =) And I'm doing pretty good.

Except for crappy friends who don't know they're crappy friends.
But whatever, I'm just forgetting about them.

Saturday, Sunday, and Monday I'll be super busy, so if you text me, it might take me a while to respond. Saturday I'm going to the Honor Society show at the Stone Pony (at least I think I am, haha). Sunday and Monday I'll be in New York City. Sunday I'm just chilling for the day in the city, and then Monday is my internship. =) I'm pretty excited.

Okay, well now I'm gonna go watch an episode or two of Ugly Betty if I can manage to stay awake.

PEACE, LOVE, AND COCOAPUFFS
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Monday, December 31, 2007

Hold On Tight, It's a Rollercoaster Ride.

Most Memorable Moments of 2007

January – First hugs of the year from some pretty cool people; Met Morgan, Brandi, and Ana on the 12th; 12th-14th = some of the best and worst few days of my life; Hanging out for at least 6 hours straight from the 13th-14th (till 4 a.m.) with Morgan, Brandi, Ana, Lisa, Chris, Larry, and the cool kid; Getting stared at by that kid; SO-M interview; "Mamamameagan!" with a hug from behind.

February – Jordan Pruitt CD Release Party with Chris K, Chris F, and Larry; Elk facts and the twilight zone in Kentucky with Chris; Virginia for Jonas with some of my favorite people; Getting stuck at the airport with Becky on the way home; Met Dana.

March – Compliments and funny moments with that kid; Lots of concerts; Good times and definitely some bad times.

April – Florida for Jonas; Not too much else.

May – Bamboozle; Not too much else.

June – Amazing Jonas shows; Texas for Jonas; Fun moments at the hotel in San Antonio; Silly string fights and evil stares; Started talking to Nicole; Made a decision.

July – Compliments from a different kid; Road trips; Press conference; Tons of Jonas concerts; Got to see Nicole for 2 seconds; The phone call.

August – CD release week with the best friends; Gramercy Park Hotel; Met Joey.

September – Nothing too memorable.

October – Again, nothing too memorable.

November – Birthday; North Carolina; Saw the boys in NC (it had been a while).

December – Spent an INCREDIBLE week with Nicole; More Hannah/Miley/Jonas shows; Saw the boys in Philly and Newark; Some memorable moments; Had some good times and bad; Met Perez Hilton; Jingle Ball; and more.

2007 was a rollercoaster year. I had my ups and my downs, but I learned who my true friends are, who I could trust, and who I should never talk to again. It was an amazing year with some bad moments, but overall, I wouldn't change a thing.

2008 will be the year that changes my life. I can feel it. Everything seems to be falling into place. I know I'm going to have some amazing times. Nothing can be much worse than the bad times I had in 2007.

Here's to the memories.

Here's to the good times and the bad.

Here's to you, 2007.

2008, HERE WE COME!

And congrats to Jonas going platinum! Such a change from one year ago!! From 'Mother May I?' in a hotel courtyard to 'Rockin New Year's Eve', they've come so far and I am so proud!

That's all for 2007.

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Thursday, December 6, 2007

Celery Salt

I wanted to write some sort of clever blog.

I'd be able to do that if I actually felt clever.

But I don't.

Tomorrow it's time for me to fly (no pun intended. Well, maybe it was) to Georgia! I'll be there till Wednesday to hang out with my best friends and see those famous kids. I think their name is los hermanos de Jonas? Something like that.

Of course, when Jose Pagina is going to be here along with Morgan, I'll be in Massachusetts. PLAN BETTER, PAGINA! I'm hoping I'll be able to see them at some point while they're here. I think them being up here and me not seeing them would just flat out suck.

I don't know what to say now.

So I'll leave you with some advice from someone's mother.

Life is full of uppies and downies. You might run into some spiders or maybe even some cockroaches, but at the end of the day, you're either going to reach the top of the tree or keep climbing.

I hope to keep climbing for a while. I hate those damn spiders. Haven't met any cockroaches yet.

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Monday, November 5, 2007

Why Do I Feel This Way?

I haven't felt happy at all lately. If I do feel happy, it only lasts a few hours at most, then something happens to make me feel upset all over again.

I feel like my friends are changing way too much. I'm not saying they're changing as people (although some are), but I'm saying I'm losing some friends I never thought I'd lose, and getting some back I never thought I'd get back.

2007 was supposed to be a big year. It has been, I've met some awesome people and I'm having some amazing opportunities arise. But feeling like your only friends are your best friends is a sucky feeling. It makes even the happiest moments feel like nothing.

Lately I've been feeling extremely left out. Like I do so much for other people and get nothing in return, not even a thank you. People think the things they do for me is payment enough. I'm not a selfish person, but it'd be nice to have someone help me out sometimes. At least I know how to take care of myself. That's something a lot of people I know can't say.

I miss the way my friends used to act. I miss talking to my friends all the time. It's not like they're any busier than they have been in the past when we used to talk a lot.

I'm sick of people telling other people what I say and then twisting my words around and taking it out of context. I'm tired of not knowing who I can trust. I'm over people thinking they know everything. Reality check: YOU DON'T KNOW A THING!

Sometimes I feel like not going on the internet (including AIM) for a month. So much changes in the two days I sometimes go without it. Seeing it after a month would be pretty interesting. And then I'd know who my true friends were. Texting would still be there. So would phone calls. If they really wanted to talk to me, they could.

Some people think I've changed. Well, I have. As you grow up, you have to change. You can't sit around waiting for things to change for you. You have to change in order to get what you want sometimes. I'm not going to go around following a band for the rest of my life. It's not what I want to do with my life. And if I do anything requiring me to do that, it's going to be with a steady income that I can life on comfortably. I don't mean having enough money for food and some clothes. I mean being able to buy what I want, when I want.

Just because I stick up for myself and my friends when people say something and just because I know the truth, people think I'm a bitch. I can guarantee you something. If you are a bitch to me or treat me or my friends like crap, you get the same treatment. Remember in elementary school, teachers would say "treat others how you want to be treated"? Remember how none of us listened? Well, it's time to start listening, because it's true. If you want people to treat you well, treat them well.

I've lost respect for so many people. Those people who say "I hate when people talk behind other people's backs" but they do that themselves. Those people who think they own the world and can pick their favorites. You can't get through life by doing that. The day is going to come when someone needs something. Someone's life could be on the line. Just because they're not one of your favorites, does that mean you won't save them?

Things have changed. About two weeks ago, I heard from someone I hadn't really spoken to since March. We still don't talk much, but I still talk to that person more than I talk to some of my friends I've been talking to this entire time.

I like where my life is heading. I have a future. I can't say that for others.

I can't really trust anyone anymore. Even the people who think I can trust them, I can't trust. The only people who I can trust with anything, and I mean ANYTHING, are Morgan, Nicole, and Joey. If they told anyone anything I said, they'd tell each other. They wouldn't go around telling people. I could share with them my deepest secrets, but I know they wouldn't go around blabbing. Even if we suddenly stopped being friends, I know they'd still keep things to themselves. I know for a fact some of my old friends aren't like that.

Does it suck knowing I won't see some people ever again? Of course. People take that the wrong way though and think I'm being selfish. For example, the Jonas Brothers. They've changed my life and the lives of others. But there are those people who understand what I mean. Like Nicole, for example. Here's some stuff she said on AIM.
Nicole: the fact is they're a band.
Nicole: but they're people who came into our lives
Nicole: and formed a personal relationship with each of us
Nicole: and because of that we cant let go
Nicole: and that was their first mistake
Nicole: we were spoiled from the start
Nicole: they wanted to present themselves as friends, people just like us, in the beginning
Nicole: you can't just rip that away
Nicole: and suddenly say "well you had your chance you can never see them again"
Nicole: it's like any other.
Nicole: its like if you and i were friends for a really long time
Nicole: and then one day
Nicole: randomly
Nicole: someone said
Nicole: "nicole and meagan you can never talk to each other again. you had your chance to be friends. you can stand in the same room but you're not allowed to speak."
Nicole: its not very fair and its pretty much emotional abuse

We have come to terms with the fact that it's over and done, but to see them one last time and tell them how proud we are would be amazing. We don't ask for much and we don't use people. We just want them to know we're proud and we still love them.

There is so much more I could say, but I can't comprehend everything that is running through my head. But that stuff I've said has been with me for a while and I needed to get it off my chest.

Hate me for it if you want, but it's how I feel.

Lately I've been feeling depressed, annoyed, angry, stressed, and now to top it all off, I'm catching a cold.

Don't get me wrong, I know I'm one of the luckiest people in the world, and I'm so grateful for everything that has happened and is happening to me.

I just wish all this drama would end.

I need it to be later in this month, and December/January. The stuff planned should cheer me up quite a bit.

That's all.
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Wednesday, August 15, 2007

WOW!

First off, I never update this thing anymore...pretty sad.

Second, congrats to Jonas on debuting at #5 on the charts!!!



At their show last night, I kept having flashbacks to last year. It's amazing how far they've come. When they announced that they would be debuting at #5, I literally wanted to cry. I'm so proud of them and they deserve it so much. They've worked so hard.

I think it's safe to say that Joe will be having a good 18th birthday today : ) Happy birthday Joe!

Well, I'm off to attempt to find tickets for tomorrow's show....

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Saturday, July 21, 2007

Hello, Blogspot...It's been a long time

I haven't posted in quite a while, so I figured I'd post a little something.

I'm at an amazing point in my life right now, and knowing who my real friends are is a great feeling.

The Tools will basically pone your life, so if you haven't added us yet, you should get on that:
http://www.myspace.com/thetoolspace

In about 6 days, Becky and I reunite and will be together until the 9th or 10th. I'm so excited! We're gonna work on our music and what not and get some up on the MySpace.

Also, Lisa is moving here soon! I'm really excited about that, too! We're gonna go see Rooney on the 18th of August in Maryland and I may be interviewing them, so I'm kind of freaking out. Rooney owns my heart, haha!

I get to see Morgan and spend a while with her too! I'm psyched for her to come up here!

CD release will be amazing. The CD is awesome, both the songs, and the whole CDVU+ thing. And Amelia will be there who I haven't seen since December. YAY!

On a low note, some of my "friends" are proving to not really be such great friends. But on a brighter note, some of my friends are proving to be amazing friends and I am so blessed to have them!!

Well, just a boring little update on my life.

I'm gonna go eat some of my almost 25 year old sister's Tinkerbell birthday cake!!

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Tuesday, June 19, 2007

Let's Get It Started!

My summer officially started on Sunday. It was pretty amazing, I must say. Now, just to keep everyone updated (since MySpace won't let me add any more dates to my calendar) here are the shows I will or may be going to (all Jonas right now):

6/20 Galveston, TX
6/21 San Antonio, TX
6/22 Rowlett, TX
6/23 Winter Haven, FL
6/24 Hershey, PA
6/25 Lodi, NJ

7/2 Cleveland, OH
7/5 Jackson, NJ
7/6 Cohassett, MA
7/7 Westbury, NY
7/9 Myrtle Beach, SC
7/11 Savannah, GA
7/12 Atlanta, GA
7/13 Bessemer, AL
7/14 Baton Rouge, LA
7/15 Gurnee, IL
7/17 Tempe, AZ - MAYBE
7/19 San Rosa, CA - MAYBE
7/21 Stillwater, MN
7/22 Stillwater, MN
7/24 Tulsa, OK - MAYBE
7/26 El Paso, TX - MAYBE
7/28 Readington, NJ - OR - Concert For A Cure in Minneapolis, MN
7/29 Philadelphia, PA

8/2 Baltimore. MD
8/4 Uncasville, CT
8/5 Atlantic City, NJ
8/6 New York, NY
8/7 New York, NY
8/9 Springfield, MA
8/13 Indianapolis, IN - PROBABLY
8/17 Altamont, NY
8/23 Ocean Grove, NJ

9/1 Valdosta, GA - PROBABLY

10/7 Mechanicsville, VA - PROBABLY
10/8 Dallas, TX - MAYBE
10/9 Perris, CA - MAYBE
10/14 Perry, GA - PROBABLY
10/21 Columbia, SC - PROBABLY

So, if you see me at any shows, make sure you say hi!!


Official start of summer 2006


Official start of summer 2007

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