Reminisce on memories, 'cause I'm gone, so gone.

So I realize this blog might make me sound selfish, annoying, or who knows what else.
But at this point, I don't care.

Because here's the thing.
I'm done.
I'm done being a good friend to people and not having them be the same.
I'm done trying to please people.
I'm done doing nice things for people, things they don't deserve, and not getting anything in return, not even a thank you.
But most of all?
I'm done pretending like I'm okay. Like everything's okay.
Because the truth is...I'm not okay.
In fact, I'm far from okay.

These past few weeks have been rough, but in the past few days, everything has been hitting me at once.
I really can't deal with it anymore.
I've tried to put on a happy face and act like everything is okay.
But it's not okay.
I'm not okay.
I'm falling apart, I'm on the edge of a nervous breakdown.
In fact, I'm surprised I can even type this stuff out with how much my head is spinning.

So here's the deal...
From now on, if you want to be my friend, you have to act like a friend.
If you don't...well then, you're not my friend anymore.
It's about time I started making some positive changes in my life.
Even if that means I have to stop being friends with the people I love.
I've given people chance after chance.
I can't do it anymore.
Second chances are enough.
Once you're on your 20th, you don't deserve any more.

So for now, I'm done.
Yesterday during the Jonas concert, there were two times I felt like bawling my eyes out.
1. Take a Breath
2. Nick's speech during 'A Little Bit Longer', along with the song.

My head is spinning so much I can't even process any thoughts in my head.
So I know this blog doesn't really have an end.

I guess that's because I don't even know the ending....
And I guess once I can actually figure out what's going on, I'll write a second part to this.

But for now.
I'm done.
I'm gone.
And if you want me in your life...
Figure out a way to keep me there.